Dear Mr.YSJ

tumblr_me9jezG8Id1r1pwguo1_r1_400Long distance love relationship. Feel na feel ko ito. Nasa ibang bansa ka, tapos andito naman ako. Parang tayo lang eh.

Hindi ko malimutan ang araw nang una kitang makita. Naka-polo ka noon, pink pa ang kulay. Iyon din ang unang araw nang una kitang mapakinggan at masilayan. Naakit ako sa boses mong maganda at mga ngiti mong nakakamatay. Tunay nga talaga ang love at first sight, noh? Kasi una palang kitang nakita, napatibok mo na puso ko.

Simula noon, araw-araw ka ng nasa isip ko; sumsasagi, di maalis, parang sa computer na nakaprogram palagi. Kung sa research, ako na siguro ang pinkamagaling na mananaliksik kasi nagawa kong alamin ang lahat tungkol sayo. Lahat, pati model ng cellphone ng tatay mo, alam ko. May nakapagsabi kasi sa akin na kapag mahal mo ang isa tao, dapat alamin mo lahat tungkol sa kanya. Kaya pati buong angkan mo, naresearch ko na.

Bakit ba kasi ako inlove sayo? Siguro dahil sa ngiti mong ikinamamatay ko sa tuwina; sa mga titig mong nakakatunaw; sa ugali mong ang tamis-tamis na nakaka-diabetes; sa maliwanang mong kutis na mas liwanag pa sa kinabukasan ko. Sa tindig mong mala-estatwa na talo pa ang mga gawa ni Michelangelo, o sa katawan mong tulo-laway ako palagi tuwing pinapanood ko mga photoshoots mo. O siguro sa tinig mong napakaganda na pwede ko ng pakasalan STAT. Ang hirap, di ko alam saan o kung bakit kita mahal. Mahirap pa sa board exam, pero mahal kita eh.

Lahat ay tutol nitong nararamdaman ko. Tinatawag na akong baliw ng mga kaibigan ko kasi ‘di daw kita reach. Pati pamilya ko, naguguluhan na sa akin. Sabi ko kasi na pagkatapos kong grumaduate, hindi muna ako maghahanap ng trabaho kasi hahanapin muna kita. Kaya binabara na lang nila ako palagi tuwing binabanggit kita. Ikaw kasi eh, binihag mo ‘ko. Pero ‘wag kang mag-alala, strict lang talaga parents ko pero tatanggapin ka n’on with open ams.

Long distance love relationship. Feel na feel ko ito. Nasa ibang bansa ka, tapos andito naman ako. Parang tayo lang eh. Kaso walang relationship. One-sided love, oo. Kasi walang relationship in the first place.

Mahal kasi kita sobra. Kahit na love at first sight lang ako sa’yo sa TV, kahit nasisilayan lang kita sa internet, kahit araw-araw kong idinidikit itong nguso ko sa mga larawan mong ninakaw ko pa sa internet, at kahit you do not know that I exist, mahal pa rin talaga kita. Parang I am born to love you. Kahit fan girl lang ako, napaka-loyal ko sa’yo. (Siguro dapat mayroon akong Loyalty Award eh.)

At alam kong magkikita tayo. Kasi sabi ni Lord, basta may tiyaga, may nilaga. Kaya pinagtitiisan ko lahat ng ginagawa ko para maka-graduate at bigyan ng pamasahe nila Mama para makapunta diyan sa bansa niyo. Magdadala ako ng marriage contract at singsing kapag nangyari yan. Huwag ka sanang magugulantang. Pero kung mawalan ka man ng malay dahil sa gagawin ko, wag kang mag-alala, willing akong i-CPR ka.

Sa ngayon, hayaan mo muna akong mag-isip na may relasyon tayo ha. Para bang, I am mentally dating a Kpop idol. Iisipin ko muna ito in the mean time para sa ikatatahimik ng kaluluwa ko. Wait ka lang sa’kin ha.  Kasi pupuntahan talaga kita, it’s whether you like or you like it. 

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Beasties

bestfriends-friends-girls-hair-Favim.com-891285After numerous cancellations, we finally decided to go out of town when summer class ended. So it happened. It was my first time to go out of town without my parents chaperoning me. I was alone ─ alone with my best of friends whom I call as “beasties.” Funny it may seem, but we became friends just last year and clicked immediately.

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Okay so went to Tumaghong Falls and it was again my first time to go to a place that looked ethereal. The next day we went to Simala. Finally! I’ve always wanted to visit the place because I know the place is kind of holy and I also heard that wishes are granted here. So we sent letters of our wishes addressed to Mama Mary, prayed, and bought souvenirs. My most favorite thing in this whole trip was the bond and moments we had made. It strengthened our friendship; it deepened the relationship between us.

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I hope those photos we took, from the bus to where we landed, will still be alive 20 years from now. Those captured moments will remind us how and what we were as time flips to 2035. I hope we will still be the Beasties till the very end.

| Written on May 23, 2015 |

I Love You @BTOB_6SJ

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It has been two years since I’ve laid eyes on you, Yook Sungjae. It has been a while since I considered you as my Ultimate Bias. Years have passed, thousands of miles between us, and I am still your # 0 fan. I never get tired of you ─ never will I ever be.

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You just turned 20 four months before me. You now became an adult. But before you became one, you have already achieved so much and I am super proud of you. The impetus of your career has made so much change. You even helped your group BTOB to get recognition worldwide through promoting them whenever you get the chance. You made me admire you when you said that you would still choose BTOB over your sparkling solo fame. Our maknae has really grown a lot.

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I know a lot of Melos are under your spell and are crazy over you, including yours truly, obviously. I have a big crowd of competitors, indeed. I have already accepted this fact though because, truly, your charm is of no joke! Who wouldn’t fall for you? You’re adorable and gorgeous, for God’s sake! But what I love most about you is that… you are… undeniably abnormal! You tend to act like nothing is to be ashamed of, you make faces on cam, you do stupid things, and you laugh like a dork. These qualities made me fall for you even more.tumblr_ndja6hhOXR1s4mjg8o1_500

I don’t know how to end this letter without expressing how much I am totally smitten by you. Just know that I love you.  I really love you.687474703a2f2f64617461312e77686963646e2e636f6d2f696d616765732f38363236383835392f7468756d622e6a7067

PS I fancy marrying you LMAO. I hope fate is in my favor. 😀

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| Written on May 2, 2015 |

Fifty Shades Freed

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Actors Jamie and Dakota’s behind the scene filming!

It got me until 5Am to finish the last book of the trilogy, which is Fifty Shades Freed. The story got me hooked up; it was beyond what I thought.

Four words: The story is amazing! It intrigued me from the very beginning and made me curious even more.  Christian and Ana’s love story is worth falling in love with. Set aside the Dom/Sub relationship, set aside how insatiable they become when it comes to love-making; rather let’s focus on how deeply and truly these two are in love with each other. As the story progressed from Book 1 to Book 3, they became  sweeter than the first they met — which was actually an odd fate. Honestly, this story made me hope for a perfect love story in the future. It’s like I see my self in Ana: innocent, naive, curious, and all the long list that describes her, describes me. For Mr. Grey, who wouldn’t fall for his qualities? A rich, young CEO, living in a mundane house who collects expensive cars and has expensive hobbies, and above all, single! A man who is really driven to his work, exercises control, enigmatic, smart, protective, and damn grey eyes turns me on! Correction, turns every girl around! Lol I must say the trilogy really leave its readers  a “Mr. Grey fever” after reading it all.

Now that I finally finished the whole story of Christian and Ana, I hope that everyone won’t see their story on the superficial side. It isn’t just about desire and sex, it’s more than that. It’s about Christian’s sadness, Ana’s bravery, and how they find love for each other despite the circumstance they have. It’s a very deep story and you’ll see its beautiful side if only you won’t let be clouded by your narrowed mind. 🙂

“Freed.”

| Written on March 28, 2015, Published on Sept. 05, 2015 |

Fifty Shades

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I was never intrigued by the story “Fifty Shades of Grey.” I knew how people were talking about it, the gist of the story, and how it became the talk of the town. However, I never had the interest to flip one of its chapters nor watch its 3D version.

Last Friday, the last day of Finals week, my two closed friends/classmates invited me join their movie marathon. At first, I was a bit hesitant but I eventually gave in and joined them. It was a Friday night bonding. The usual. There were two choices of movie to watch first: Ouija and Fifty Shades of Grey. My hate for horror movies barked in and suggested Fifty Shades instead. My subconscious became excited, “Is this movie really a porn type?” So oddly, I became curious as I wasn’t before. I put my attention to the whole detail and to every scene. And guess what, I was definitely captivated by it! Believe me, there is really something in the story which is captivating.

Yes, the movie was definitely full of erotic scenes. Yes, the nakedness was really visible. But no, I never blinked an eye in every scene. (Laughs 10x) Excuse me to your malicious thoughts, but because there is a deep story behind Christian Grey and Anastasia Steele’s characters.50-shades-of-grey-soundtrack-2015-republic-billboard-650_BINARY_693887

I sense love more than lust, I sense a drama more than an erotic movie genre.

Right now, I’m currently reading the book and I’m looking forward to finish the whole trilogy and know more about Fifty Shades.

Bubbles x


| Written last March 26, 2015. Published on September 5, 2015 | (more…)